My Adrian x

Haven't been on this page in awhile but tonight I feel
very compelled to write my feelings. Tonight is not a
good one. I am saddened over the loss of one of my best
friends. Adrian taught me so much about life and showed me
a lot. I will miss him so much. I will miss our chats, our spats,
our jokes over who comes from the greatest nation and travelling
around Europe and experiencing exciting places together.
I will miss Adrian's generosity, his spontaneity and just being
there for me.
He was taken from us too soon. I am happy for those five years that
we got to know each other and I thank God for our friendship.
God bless you Adrian and I know you are at peace in our Father's house.
Love you forever xxxxxx

Staying Focused

Dear Lord, please keep me flexible so that I can willingly turn in the
right direction. Keep me open to your will, and not stubbornly set my sights
on a direction that may not be good for me. I earnestly desire to be quick to hear you and quick to obey. In the name of Jesus, AMEN


I WILL I WILL I WILL .............................

God's Rutter for us

READ: Psalm 119:129-136

Direct my steps by Your Word. —Psalm 119:133

"During the era of great sea exploration in the 15th and 16th centuries, sailing ships traversed vast, hazardous oceans and navigated dangerous coastlines. Pilots used various navigation techniques—including a book called a “rutter” (not the “rudder,” the ship’s steering device). This was a log of events kept by earlier voyagers who chronicled their encounters with previously unknown and difficult waters. By reading the sailing details in a rutter, captains could avoid hazards and make it through difficult waters.

In many ways, the Christian life is like a voyage, and the believer needs help in navigating life’s perilous seas. We have that help because God has given us His Word as a “spiritual rutter.” Often when we reflect on a meaningful passage, we can recall God’s faithfulness through trying circumstances. As the psalmist suggests, perils are found not only in life situations but also in our inner tendency toward sin. Because of these dual concerns, he wrote, “Direct my steps by Your Word, and let no iniquity have dominion over me” (119:133).

As you reflect on the teaching in the Bible, you’ll be reminded of God’s past care, assured of the Lord’s guidance in trying circumstances, and warned against sinfulness. That’s the advantage of having a “spiritual rutter.” —Dennis Fisher

My Bible is a guidebook true
That points for me the way,
That gives me courage, hope, and cheer
And guidance for each day. —Anon.

With God’s Word as your map and His Spirit as your compass, you’re sure to stay on course."

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We have our own personal rutter to guide us through this battling and trying voyage of life.

It's perfectly human to worry

If you don't have worries or don't worry then consider yourself for sainthood because you are something a little beyond human. Honestly I don't think there is a person alive who does not worry. It's human and we can't help it. Some people say they do not worry but I find that extremely hard to believe. My worries are not yours and yours are not mine basically.

"Matthew 6:25-34


Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. —Matthew 6:34

In a radio interview, a basketball superstar was asked about his knack for making the game-winning shot in crucial situations. The reporter asked how he was able to be so calm in such pressure-packed moments. His answer was that he tried to simplify the situation. “You only have to make one shot,” the player replied. One shot. That is the essence of simplifying a difficult situation. Focus only on what is in front of you right now. Don’t worry about the expectations of your coach or teammates. Simplify.

Recognizing that the challenges of life can be both overwhelming and suffocating, Jesus urged us to take matters in hand by simplifying. He said, “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble” (Matt. 6:34). This was His wise conclusion to His teaching on the debilitating power of worry. Worry doesn’t accomplish anything positive; it just adds to the sense that we are drowning in the troubles we are facing. We must take things as they come­—one day at a time­—and trust Him for the wisdom to respond properly.

If you feel overwhelmed by life, do what you can today and then entrust the rest to Him. As Jesus said, “Each day has enough trouble of its own” (niv). —Bill Crowder

Don’t worry for your future needs,
It will only bring you sorrow;
But give them to the Lord instead—
He’ll take care of your tomorrow. —Sper

We lose the joy of living in the present when we worry about the future."

The Lord's Protection

I just came across this prayer on Facebook that my
cousin wrote. It's nice and I'm going to steal it--
God won't mind ;-)

"Dear Lord, fill me with your Spirit so that there is no mistake to those around me….they will know that I am under your influence! Everyone I come in contact with even strangers will know just by an encounter with me that I daily walk with you. Your power and your glory will be reflected in me to the world. Your presence upon me will shine like a light in the darkness."

"Dear Lord, I am going to encounter some things today that I just cannot handle by myself. I expect to be faced with pressures, people, and situations beyond my control. But you are the same no matter what so keep me focused and calm, relying on your strength. In the name of Jesus, Amen!"

Thanks S.A.

Dependence

I understand that I need to totally depend on God and no one else.
I look to God for every understanding, for every need, for every bit of comfort and
solace. I depend on God for peace and understanding, guidance, clarity and protection.
This reading from ODB yesterday was a good read. Thank you God.

1 John 2:24–3:3

"In Him we live and move and have our being. —Acts 17:28

While enjoying the arrival of a new great-niece, I was reminded of how much work it is to take care of a newborn baby. They are needy little creations who want feeding, changing, holding, feeding, changing, holding, feeding, changing, holding. Totally unable to care for themselves, they depend on those older and wiser people surrounding them.

We’re dependent children too—reliant on our Father in heaven. What do we need from Him that we can’t provide for ourselves? “In Him we live and move and have our being” (Acts 17:28). He supplies our very breath. He also meets our needs “according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19).

We need our Father for peace in our troubles (John 16:33), love (1 John 3:1), and help in time of need (Ps. 46:1; Heb. 4:16). He gives victory in temptation (1 Cor. 10:13), forgiveness (1 John 1:9), purpose (Jer. 29:11), and eternal life (John 10:28). Without Him, we “can do nothing” (John 15:5). And from Him, “we have all received one blessing after another” (John 1:16 NIV).

Let’s not think of ourselves as totally independent—because we’re not. The Lord sustains us day by day. In many ways, we’re as needy as a newborn baby. —Anne Cetas

We are dependent on the Lord
Who showers us with blessing;
He gives us everything we need—
Without Him we are nothing. —Sper

Depending on God isn’t weakness; it’s acknowledging His strength."

Fresh Fruit

Received this one after my birthday which I always find a bit down on.

"The righteous . . . shall still bear fruit in old age. —Psalm 92:12,14

I love the old photographs that are often printed on the obituary page of our local newspaper. A grinning young man in a military uniform and words such as: 92 years old, fought for his country in WWII. Or the young woman with sparkling eyes: 89 years young, grew up on a farm in Kansas during the Depression. The unspoken message is: “I wasn’t always old, you know.”

Too often, those who have had a long life feel sidelined when they reach their later years. Psalm 92, however, reminds us that no matter how old we are, we can have a fresh and fruitful life. Men and women who have been “planted” in the rich soil of God’s vineyard will continue to “bear fruit” and be “fresh and flourishing” (v.14). Jesus promised that “he who abides in Me, and I in him,” will continue to bear “much fruit” (John 15:5).

Yes, muscles may ache and joints may hurt, and life may slow down a bit. But inwardly we can be “renewed day by day” (2 Cor. 4:16).

I recently saw a T-shirt on a beautiful white-haired woman that said: “I’m not 80. I’m 18 with 62 years experience.” No matter how old we get, we can still be young at heart—but with the benefit of a well-lived lifetime of knowledge and wisdom. —Cindy Hess Kasper

We can be young in heart and mind,
To others we can yet be kind,
Sing songs of praise to God through tears,
And grow in grace through all our years. —Zimmerman

Faithfulness is God’s requirement; fruitfulness is His reward."

Patience

Patience is a virtue and not an attribute of mine in any way. "I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His Word I do hope. —Psalm 130:5

Children want things now: “But I want dessert now!” “Are we there yet?” “Now can we open our presents?” In contrast, as we get older we learn to wait. Medical students wait through training. Parents wait in hopes that the prodigal will return. We wait for what is worth waiting for, and in the process we learn patience.

God, who is timeless, requires of us a mature faith that may involve delays that seem like trials. Patience is one sign of that maturity, a quality that can develop only through the passing of time.

Many prayers in the Bible come out of the act of waiting. Jacob waited 7 years for a wife and then worked 7 more after being tricked by her father (Gen. 29:15-20). The Israelites waited 4 centuries for deliverance; Moses waited 4 decades for the call to lead them, then 4 more decades for a Promised Land he would not enter.

“My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning,” wrote the psalmist (Ps. 130:6 NIV). The picture comes to mind of a watchman counting the minutes for his shift to be over.

I pray for the patience to endure times of trial, to keep anticipating, keep hoping, keep believing. I pray for patience to be patient. —Philip Yancey

Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint. —Isaiah 40:31

God seldom does great things in a hurry."

Love and obey the Lord every day, and He will unfold your future.

But what is the will of God or at least for me?
: Psalm 67

Why is God good to us?
God be merciful to us and bless us, and cause His face to shine upon us. —Psalm 67:1

When I was growing up, we often sang a song in Sunday school that went like this: “God is good to me! God is good to me! He holds my hand and helps me stand! God is good to me!”

I need to say right away that I believe God is good and He takes delight in doing good things for people. He does indeed hold our hand in times of trouble and helps us stand against the onslaught of life’s difficulties. But I wonder if you’ve ever asked yourself, Why is He good? It certainly is not because we deserve it or because He feels the need to buy our love and allegiance with His benefits.

The psalmist prays for God to bless him so that “[the Lord’s] way may be known on earth, Your salvation among all nations” (Ps. 67:2). God’s daily blessings are proof positive that He is indeed a good God who cares for His own. But how will our world know this about God if we never praise Him for His goodness to us? (v.3).

So, the next time God blesses you, be sure to look for ways to appropriately give Him the credit. Consuming His blessings without communicating His goodness shortchanges the very purpose of His gifts of grace in our lives. —Joe Stowell

As endless as God’s blessings are,
So should my praises be
For all His daily goodnesses
That flow unceasingly! —Adams

God is good—make sure the people in your world know what He has done in your life.

Woandering what's next......

Lying on bed and wondering what is next or what should be next in life.
What do I do? How do I know that it is for me to do? Is it what God want's me to do?
Even if I do it how do I know that's it's not just what I want?
Life's such a puzzle.
God has been good and has sent many blessings but I
would be lying to myself if I said I weren't still
very confused as to what is going on. Why is this man
such a mystery to me? No matter what I will continue
to give Him thanks and praise through all this confusion
in hopes of one day seeing what's really going on.

Attention: There will be delays

"When our plans fall apart and there is no remedy, how do we deal with frustration and delay? Isaiah 26:3-4 is an anchor for our souls in every storm of life: “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You. Trust in the Lord forever, for in [Jehovah], the Lord, is everlasting strength.” Whether we’re facing annoying inconvenience or heartbreaking loss, this rock-solid promise is worth memorizing and repeating every night when we close our eyes to sleep.

Today, when plans are shattered, do our minds dwell on the circumstances or on the Lord? During frustrating delay, can we still trust the loving heart of God?"

There are delays in life but I often wonder if things will take off or stay grounded. What good comes out of the delay? Will we diverted to something better or worse? Feels like I've been parked at the gate forever. Life is a mystery.

Valid Entry

Read this story from today's RBC. Very interesting and something deep to think about.


Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” —John 14:6

"On a teaching trip outside the US, my wife and I were denied entry into our country of destination because of visa problems. Although we were under the assumption our visas had been correctly issued by the country we planned to visit, they were deemed invalid. Despite the efforts of several government officials, nothing could be done. We weren’t allowed in. We were placed on the next flight back to the States. No amount of intervention could change the fact that we did not have the proper validation for entrance.

That experience with my visa was inconvenient, but it can’t begin to compare with the ultimate entry rejection. I’m speaking of those who will stand before God without valid entry into heaven. What if they were to present the record of their religious efforts and good deeds? That would not be enough. What if they were to call character references? That wouldn’t work. Only one thing can give anyone entry into heaven. Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me” (John 14:6).

Christ alone, through His death and resurrection, paid the price for our sins. And only He can give us valid entry into the presence of the Father. Have you put your faith in Jesus? Make sure you have a valid entry into heaven." —Bill Crowder

There aren’t many ways into heaven;
The Bible says there’s only one;
Good works won’t gain anyone entrance;
It’s only through faith in God’s Son. —Sper

Only through Christ can we enter the Father’s presence.

Temptations

Earthly life is a pilgrimage, and as such it is full of temptations. But our spiritual growth is worked out in temptation. By experiencing temptations, we know ourselves. By fighting them we have a chance to become winners. By overcoming them, we are crowned victors. Lord, you are our physician, healing the ills of all.

-- St. Augustine

Lord lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil today and everyday in Jesus name--Amen.

To get a clear view of God, focus on Jesus Christ.

Day by day I am trying to gain a better relationship with God through Jesus. That is all that matters. x

When am I getting there?

Are We There Yet?

The Lord your God led you all the way these forty years in the wilderness, to humble you and test you, to know what was in your heart. —Deuteronomy 8:2

If there is any such thing as a universal question, it may be this: Are we there yet? Generations of children have asked it. They have then grown into adults who have to answer the same question when their children ask.

Whenever I read the books of Moses, I wonder how many times he heard that question from the Israelites. Before rescuing them from slavery and leading them out of Egypt, Moses told them that the Lord would lead them to “a land flowing with milk and honey” (Ex. 3:8). He did, but first they spent 40 years wandering in the wilderness. This was no ordinary wandering, however. They were not lost; they were wandering for a purpose. After 400 years of slavery, the children of Israel needed to have their hearts, souls, and minds reoriented toward God. This was accomplished in the wilderness (Deut. 8:2,15-18), but not before an entire generation died because of their disobedience (Num. 32:13).

In life, it sometimes seems as if we are wandering in circles. We feel lost. We want to ask God, “Are we there yet? How much longer?” At such times, it helps to remember that the journey, not just the destination, is important to God. He uses it to humble us, test us, and show us what is in our hearts. —Julie Ackerman Link

All God’s testings have a purpose—
Someday you will see the light;
All He asks is that you trust Him,
Walk by faith and not by sight. —Zoller

It’s the journey, not just the destination, that’s important.

Ash Wednesday and ridding oneself of old ways

Today we observe Ash Wednesday. This day marks the beginning of the Lenten Season. Lent is a time of prayer, fasting, and penance in preparation for the celebration of the Lord's Resurrection on Easter Sunday. During this season we are called to meditate upon the sufferings and Passion of Jesus Christ, as well as our own sufferings and how we might become better beneficiaries of God's will. In addition, we are called to perform works of mercy so as to build up the Body of Christ.
Ash Wednesday could by others be considered just any other day but on this day we are reminded of who we really are and what we are and the sacrifices that have been made for us. In this observation of Lent I want to sacrifice some things and rid myself of my old ways.

Tis the night before Lent

It's the night before Lent and as someone
who is turning back to Christ recently I have
yet to decide what I will be giving up for the
Lenten season. Regardless I plan to spend more
time with my number one--Christ.
Deciding what one will give up for Lent is almost
like a New Year's Resolution but with greater determination
because you are not only doing it for yourself but for the
love of Christ.
I think I will try to focus less on outside relationships and
give it all over to Christ. Try to become healthier spiritually
and physically and to find everlasting peace within me and Christ.
Christs' love peace and mercy be upon us all during this Lenten season.

Quiet time for Jesus

I am wanting to quiet my mind and heart more to
hear God and it is impossible and especially as
someone with ADHD and having a mind that seems
to roam all over the place.
Please dear Jesus quiet my mind and heart so
that I can hear your voice. x

Just being there for me.

Matthew 6: 24 - 34
Entrusting and knowing that God will take care of me.

Sirach 17: 1 - 15
Using the wisdom and knowledge that God has given me.

The Fairest Blossom that springs from the soul

1 Peter 4:7-11


. . . that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. —1 Peter 4:11

A Bouquet of Praise
"Corrie ten Boom (1892–1983) was a World War II concentration camp survivor and Christian who became a popular speaker around the world. Thousands attended her meetings as she talked about how she had learned to forgive her captors just as Christ had forgiven her sins.

After each meeting, people surrounded her and heaped accolades on her for her godly qualities and thanked her for encouraging them in their walk with the Lord. Corrie said she would then return to her hotel room, get down on her knees, and present those compliments in thanks to God. She called it giving God “a bouquet of praise.”

The Lord has given each of us gifts to use to minister to one another (1 Peter 4:10) so that “in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever” (v.11). We have nothing to offer others that we have not first received from the Lord (1 Cor. 4:7), so the glory does belong to Him."

"To learn humility, perhaps we could follow Corrie’s example. If we receive a compliment for something we’ve said or done, let’s privately give a bouquet of praise to God for the glory He alone deserves. —Anne Cetas

Immortal, invisible, God only wise,
In light inaccessible hid from our eyes,
Most blessed, most glorious, the Ancient of Days,
Almighty, victorious—Thy great name we praise. —Smith

Praise is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul."

Inspiration and wisdom

Sirach 17:1-15
I found the above passage very inspiring.
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Let us ask our Lord to work in us and through us, and let us do our utmost to draw Him down into our hearts, for He Himself has said: "Without Me you can do nothing."

-- St. Madeleine Sophie Barat

Do I Have to Tell Anyone?

This is an interesting devotion that I received yesterday from the RBC. It is something I have considered but sometimes you wonder who you are supposed to share things with. Some people can be downright nasty--and I am actually speaking of those who are supposed followers of Christ. I never want to be like some of them. I want to know that I am a child of Christ and to take things one step at a time. Having the attitude that I have never sinned and have been perfect all along does not sit well with me. I don't want to be another self-righteous holy roller. That is non-sense I can do without.

"Will I Have to Tell?"
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. —2 Corinthians 5:17

Jim was sharing the gospel with Kerri. He told her she was separated from a holy God because of her sin, and that Jesus had died and risen for her salvation. She kept coming up with one reason not to believe: “But if I do receive Him, I won’t have to tell other people about it, will I? I don’t want to do that.” She said that didn’t fit her personality; she didn’t want to have to tell others about Jesus.

Jim explained that promising to witness about Jesus wasn’t a requirement before receiving Him. But he also said that once she came to know the Lord, Kerri would become His ambassador to the world (2 Cor. 5:20).

After talking a little longer, Kerri acknowledged her need for salvation through Christ. She went home excited and at peace. Funny thing happened—within 24 hours she told three people about what God had done in her life.

Because we have been reconciled to God through Jesus, we now have “the ministry of reconciliation,” according to the apostle Paul (v.18). We are His ambassadors, and therefore we implore people “on Christ’s behalf, be reconciled to God” (v.20).

When we’re thankful, we want to share what God has done. —Anne Cetas

I love to tell the story,
For some have never heard
The message of salvation
From God’s own holy Word. —Hankey

There’s no better news than the gospel— spread the word!

Forgiveness

"Forgiveness is giving up the hope that
the past could have been any different."--- Oprah Winfrey

Forgiveness is something else and not the easiest of things to do when you have been hurt. It's even worse when someone has hurt you and you forgive them but they don't think they have done anything in wrong. Then you thank goodness for good old fashioned karma.

Reconcilliation and will

Today like every other day has been a very questionable one for me.
What next? Am I supposed to be doing this or that?
What will the future hold? Where does God really want me to be and why is
He not telling or showing me?
I must admit that this reconcilliation is tough and trying but I am willing to stick with it. I really do need Jesus in my life.

"
Remember, that the devil has only one door by which to enter the soul: the will. There are secret or hidden doors. Temptations, discouragement, and unrest are the wares offered by the enemy. Remember this: if the devil makes noise, it is a sign that he is still outside and not yet within. That which must terrify us is his peace and concord within the human soul.@

-- Saint Pio of Pietrelcina

Trust

"Lord, I know not to put my trust or faith in man but in you alone. I trust your wisdom. U instructed us to trust in U with all of our heart and not to depend on our own understanding. I trust U with every fiber of myself. I seek your will and purpose in my life. Direct my path, O Lord. You already know my needs. Help me not to worry. Keep me focused on you in Christ."

Still hanging in there

As of tomorrow I will have been back home in the US for six months and yes everyday in itself feels like a week but I am still trying to hang in there in more ways than one. I am trying to be patient with God, with myself and those around me. It's tough. It's a learning lesson and God knows I have little to no patience whatsoever.
Day by day I have relaxed and handed any concern or problem over to God because I know that He can deal with it far better than me. I am now waiting to see what happens next. What will become of me.

"Teach me Thy patience! still with Thee
In closer, dearer company,
In work that keeps faith sweet and strong,
In trust that triumphs over wrong." —Gladden

People with a heart for God have a heart for people.

Troubles

"Many are brought to faith by trouble".

I guess being in trouble or anticipating trouble will make one to re-evaluate their relationship and faith in God. Will God protect us and if not why? Is it a learning lesson that will teach us better next time?
We feel a need for a protection from someone that is greater than ourselves. God is a helping and forgiving God knowing that we are not perfect and if we have enough faith in Him, He will see us through the trouble.

The best thing about not knowing......

"On this day, God wants you to know
... that nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be. You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know."

So I guess this is one of the better things about worry and not knowing what is supposed to happen next. No wonder.........

Yes I am listening for you

I'm listening. The last few weeks have been
very interesting with my reconnection to God.
Some things are seeming clear but I like anyone
else is still very confused as to what is really
going on. God please talk to me please.

Jesus as our guest

"We don’t need to put our house in order before Jesus comes in; He puts it in order after we let Him in."
I think this is an interesting quote and easy to consider Jesus is in our lives. Jesus makes things correct.

Stay Focused!

Distraction is my biggest flaw. This evening
I decided that I would try to be more focused
in everything; God, life, everyday duties, etc.
It's going to take a lot of work and patience
but it will see its way into me.
STAY FOCUSED TANZ!

Great Quotes-Sr. Thea Bowman

"I think the difference between me and some people is that I'm content to do my little bit. Sometimes people think they have to do big things in order to make change. But if each one would light a candle we'd have a tremendous light"--Sr. Thea Bowman of the Franciscan Sisters of Perpetual Adoration

Daily thanks

Thank you Lord for all those times when you were there for me and I took them for granted. Thank you Lord that I have been able to handle students loans that I can barely pay each month. Thank you Lord for having a decent home to live in, good food and clean water. Thank you that I am American and even though we have our own problems we still have it a bit better than some. Thank you Lord for the education that I have received so far and I pray that you can grant me the intelligence and wisdom to work in areas that I have struggled once I return to college. Thank you Lord that even though I am not in the best of health I can still do for myself--my senses function as they should and I can walk and speak. Thank you Lord for friends, family and strangers who care. Thank you Lord that I do care.

I'm Getting There

This is a new blog that I started in hopes of having a relationship with God.
At this point in my life I am still not sure if God is with me but now I am taking things slowly and want to start over. I know it's important that we have a relationship with God as He is the giver of life.
I chose to abandon a relationship with God because I felt that was what he wanted and at best. I want to come home. From what I can see now the relationship will not be the same as last time. I need to take things very slowly this time and not be in such a rush to be something I am not again. Of course I still have some trust issues and I want to let go. I have never been one for positive thinking or the great optimist but I will try to be normal about this friendship.
Prior to relocating to England the previous two years of my life were the absolute worst. As far as I am concerned God did not give a damn! Three hospitalisations for two mental breakdowns and a surgery that may have kept me from ever being able to have children. Where was God when all of this was going on? Was he with me? Am I still alive because of his loving saving grace or did he allow me to live as a slap in the face?
To me or my life has been one walless prison with one setback after another. We are supposed to learn from our mistakes but through most of mine I am yet to figure out what happened and why? Why did God allow me to fail so many times? Where were the successes?
If God knows my heart and wants me to be happy then when I seek something to bring that happiness why does he not assist? Yes I must be realistic! There are so many great things that I want out of life just like anyone else so why does that desire have to stop at me? Why can't I be a happily married wife and mother? What's wrong with me? I have no desires to hurt my husband or children like so many other women do. If marriage is a vocation why can I not be a part of that?
I will try to make this relationship with God work. I have gone on to other men the elast I could do is give the one who gave me life a chance.
I have been advised to give more thanks (is wasn't doing this before) and read the Bible more. This will be difficult and I did order a new Catholic Bible tonight. I will give it another go even though there is something I am not sure of with this book.